Monthly Archives: June 2005

For some reason, initially when I heard this song, it just struck me as something I’d want playing at my funeral… Make any sense? No? Exactly.

When you try your best
but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want
but not what you need
When you feel so tired
but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone
but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you, I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face
And I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

EDIT: One particular person liked the last Vasarely background I had back in December so I thought I’d try this one and have it tiled. Sweet, ain’t it?


I am in L-O-V-E with Cillian Murphy

Alright, it’s sorta late for a random (kinda irrelevant) entry, but I have to express my happiness at my finding The Arcade Fire again! My dad and I first heard about them a year ago on NPR (great source for things besides news in case you’re unaware) and since I only saw one album by them in Borders back in January or something. Check out some of their music soon! Right now I am listening to “Neighborhood #3 (Power Out).”

Good stuff 🙂 Okay, then, I might write something more of an entry here later.

So. i guess i haven’t written anything about the trip to california, huh?

well, actually, i’m really too tired now to write about it still.

Simply put, though, San Francisco was and is most amazing. Extremely
entertaining and fun. I would live on Pier 39 if I could and join the
World’s Most Famous Bush Man.


Youth Service Church Project in West Palm Beach in 17 days.

I just finished 12 practice math questions for the ACT…still deciding
if I’m actually going to take it. I sure can’t wait to take the SAT
again! Yay! 

    Well. In 26 hours and 30 minutes I will have to be
awake and getting ready to be at the airport for a 6:00 a.m. flight to
Denver. From there, I will fly to San Francisco. Sadly, the tour will
only last 7 days, but I’m still excited. Sort of. It’ll be far from the
same as any of the previous tours I’ve been on with BCC…and…we’ll
probably suck compared to any other times. I NEED TO BE OPTIMISTIC,
THOUGH. Who knows? It might be the best freaking tour ever…somehow.
    Anyways. Last night, I finished ironing every piece
of clothing (excluding socks and underwear) before neatly packing them
into the suitcase.Then I packed my carry-on and wrapped the secret-sis
gift I bought and a birthday gift. Afterwards, I watched the final cd
of the 1st Season Southpark DVD set. I don’t remember when I fell
asleep in my bed, but, apparently, I left the lamp atop my bedside
table on. 
    Today, I worked with fellow social chairperson,
Charisma with the social stuff for tour. Then I went home and slept. At
about 5:30 or so, I went out to eat with Vitaly. And oh, it was the
saddest, funniest thing. For maybe 20 minutes, I was looking around the
entire restaurant wondering where the heck he was only to find that he
was right in front of me just behind the privacy walls  besides
the tables… for heaven’s sake. Anyways, we had a good time. At least
I did…haha!
    Umm…I was accepted for the 3 week church service
project down in West Palm Beach in July…and Gabe’s going. And in a
few words all I have to say is: DAMMIT! CURSES! and NO!!! (seriously.
this sucks) I mean, it’s not like he’s my ex (because we were never
together), but you talk about feeling awkward…ugh.
    On a happier note, Harry Potter is coming out in
less than 2 months and although I won’t be able to read it the day it
comes out, 😥 the day I return from Florida July 27, I will have that
book and read it as soon as it’s in my hands…thus, postponing any
necessary post-trip unpacking and laundry. It’s better to just admit
that I won’t do anything with the clothes for a day or two…lol. Then!
Finally! The one week trip to Florida again with the family in August.
Destin, Florida, again 🙂
     First day of my senior year will be when it
is. Probably the last week of August again, but right now, I can’t be
half bothered to care about it. Summer better not pass too soon.
If it does…then…

shucks. And I am saying that passionately and firmly.